i realized, over time that i never quite forgot.
i never quite knew then
and yet, i know now.
i didnt treasure what i had
so close.
and now, with the gap so far.
i yearn for it.
nothing really compares if they know what i had.
beacuse i was so blind to have not seen.
what i could have had;
as instead,
i was chasing what i couldnt.
now as lives go on.
thoughts linger
thoughts remain
i couldnt believe that as everything flew by
you were there to see them through
all 3 years right beside me.
but i just didnt turn to see you there.
now i constantly think.
of what could have happened.
what are u now and what has all this become.
are thoughts still follow me.
and are they given back
i'll look at what u left me.
and i'll smile to myself.
so many millions of miles to go
and if i do,
will i dissappoint myself
but what was i thinking then?
not to notice something that was always beside me.
instead, for the bestfriend.
for the other one i wish to forget.
for the last i would see.
blue boxed butter cookies as i left
i felt. nothing.
and i only blamed myself.
who am i kidding. i still do.
but just 3 years would be enough
because memories can be kept as long as u want them to stay.
and i wish to have them for eternity.
i wish to have them forever.
now all i can cry are tears of joy
and all i can say is thank you
-su-en
i'mgone -if you asked me today, i'd say that im fine. but i bet u can tell by the tone of my voice thats just a lie-